Can it really be?

It’s now 8:22 pm and I have had…count with me now…1 (one) soma today. No lortab. Yeah me! It’s going on 24 hours since I’ve taken one and damn it…that makes me happy. However, in saying this…I’m taking one just as soon as this posts. After doing all of the cleaning and laundry today, it’s starting to catch up with me and I’m feeling it. But just knowing I can get through again without taking that shit is a Hip Hip Hooray moment for me!

And for an update on the ugly from yesterday…Yes, again…too much information!

No stupidity lately, well…

Nothing odd or weird or panic attack provoking has happened since my last post. Woohoo!! I saw Garcia last week and she said just keep with my normal cocktail and all should be well. The only thing I have to do is get my Vitamin D checked after the first of the year.

My eyes have been hurting me more lately and it’s driving me crazy. I know it’s my own fault because I’m straining them playing Space Wars, Mob Wars and Vampire Wars on Face Book. If anyone who actually reads this is on Face Book, feel free to add me as a friend for any of the above Wars, just put which one in the little note section.

Rather off topic from what I usually talk about…

It snowed. Here. In Vegas. WTF?? Want to see?

We didn’t get much on my side of town, but Henderson and Boulder City got nailed. It was ugly. I hate snow.

driving home

looking out of office window

Normalcy is such a fleeting thing

Yes, I stole that title from my facebook status…so shoot me.

Friday night showed me a glimmer of what my normalcy should be. However, Saturday dawned and normalcy decided to take a hike.

I am back to my normal cocktail of drugs but, as I have found out (the hard way I might add) they do not take you back to the way you were immediately. Stupid freaking doctors! Anyway…Saturday saw a panic attack early because I forgot how bad the muscle spasms in my chest were (hey isn’t that what the drugs are for??) So therefore Kel thinks she’s having a damn heart attack even though she knows good and well that her heart is just peachy and she’s freaking for nothing. And you know what happens when you have a panic attack right? Yup…you guessed it. You tense up and you hurt even worse. So guess where I spent most of Saturday? Ye ole couch. Even though I hate her, she was my best friend.

The only thing good that came from Saturday was this:

snowman

Greg stole it for me during Dirty Santa at our local SCCA Christmas party. See…he really does love me.

Today has been better, though not perfect. I will be going back to work tomorrow though it’s not going to be fun since they took me away from my fav attorney. hummppph.

The day after

Today was better. The haze is gone, but my God was the pain there.

I knew when I made the decision to not take any meds last night that today would be bad. But I really didn’t think it would be that bad.

I got up this morning around 9. The migraine still hadn’t dissipated and every muscle felt like it was rebelling against me. I dealt with it until around 1 when I finally took a Soma. Like I told Danielle, I would rather have the high from the Soma (simply because I hadn’t really eaten anything for close to 36 hours) than go through what I went through yesterday. I never want to go through that again.

The Soma kicked in and did its job, for the most part. The Lortab finished it off. It’s now almost 11pm. I actually feel normal. Well, normal for me anyway. My sleep cycle is screwed up, but I’ll deal with that this weekend.

So umm…Cymbalta, you can kiss my ass. I’ll not be taking you again.

Responsibilty sucks

Today hasn’t been a great day. I believe that the lack of sleep over the past several days has finally caught up with me.

I hurt. I feel like I have been beat with a sack of soap and left to die. Everything. Hurts. My back hurts, my hands and fingers feel swollen and are tingling, my legs feel like I’ve walked for miles, and I’ve got a headache from hell. Though I should be thankful it isn’t a migraine. And this all started before 6am and is still going strong.

But like the good girl I am, I went to work this morning anyway. I have found that if I keep myself busy I can keep my mind off of the hurt (at least that’s what I tell myself anyway.) That little jedi mind trick didn’t work so well today though. Believe me when I say, I would have much rather had stayed home today.